christmas eve

Christmas Eve 2013

One year ago I walked up to a girl and I rambled a mouth full of words.

Never until that moment have I felt so entranced that I had to pour out my soul to an almost stranger. 

I wish for the sake of story telling I could tell you what I said, but you can't imagine the amount of nervous I was feeling in that moment. Or maybe you can. 

It was genuine though. I said it all man.

A confession of attraction and longing for more than just a quick fix. To share a moment, whatever that may mean.

I just had to know this magical foxette and who she really is.

But damn... I'm sitting here in my living room... thinking... I do a lot of that.

It feels like a fairy tale. It feels genuine and real.

And it's been a year?!

What the what is time anyway?

Sometimes it feels like more than that.

Sometimes it feels like only minutes.

I still get stomach knots and anxious in her presence. She's gorgeous! 

Love is patient.

Love is weird. 

Love is awkward.  

Love is honest.

Life is but a dream...

I could keep rambling about lovesick, sappy shit for pages and pages, but I really should keep packing to move into this new apartment. 

I just needed to document this happening because... because life is about the moments.

It helps the brain process to talk it out.

Or write it down. 

Anyway...

Sabrina Janae... I love you babay.

Thanks for giving this tramp a chance. 

...ABC