rock n' roll
I am going to start recording my improv jams at home under the title “Foggy Lantern Sessions” because if I am not entertaining/singing/sharing I am going to lose it!
Here is the first of said series.
There is so much happening and I am doing my damnest to get in the routine of blogging more.
be brave. be free. long live liberty.
-ABC
here i am
there they are
as they always were.
light distorts it
forget about it if you can
i pay attention to details
it was like this and now it’s like this
time and space. 2 realms. always present. always slightly different.
this time it’s James. next time it’s Gabriel.
it’s a different magazine description. a different season. a slightly different hook.
did i create or was i created for this moment?
it seems selfish to assume such an ability
how long can a fox graze among sheep until he begins to lick his teeth?
the owls are not what they seem
and we’ve know this since the 1990’s
who are the owls? what do they see?
the first time i left the planet
i saw unmentionable things
if i want to talk it out
it all sounds crazy
and if you know what i mean
you know why we sing
and why this whole god damned thing
is entertaining to me
you'll remember when
not too long from now
you'll say, "a.b., you were right, friend."
on the other side of hell
there's a story of hallelujah glory
when the saints go marching in
i'll be laughing with my friends
on the side of hell
hallelujah glory
john the baptist
that homosexual fuck
took jesus down by the river
fuck what's it gotta do with luck?
i don't know if i know how to "let it go"
filled with good intent
fueled by fear
we'll all become monsters
you think i've lost it?
yeah, i've done lost it all
more than once
i ain't playing no more
i've already lost my mind in this song
i ain't no fucking messiah
i ain't no fucking king
but when it comes to liberty
all you gotta do is sing with me
la la la la long live liberty
i came by to sing rock n' roll songs.
i came by to yell revolution.
i came by for all you nonbelievers.
mad as a hatter, but i ain't evil
Life, Love, and Rock n' Roll
Last night I went and saw The Chariot play at Branx, marking the last time I will ever see them.
I've seen them play numerous times but last night was undoubtedly my favorite performance.
It was nice seeing them in a slightly (only slightly) bigger venue than 1982 in Gainesville, Florida. Josh Scogin was climbing on everything and jumping on the crowd repeatedly. And he said they were only "playing at 30%".
It's kind of bittersweet to see them go, but rather to curious to see what the guys do after The Chariot disbands.
I will say it sparked my inner monster again. I'm ready to play some loud rock n' roll more than ever before.
If you live in Portland and want to play some genuine, heartfelt, heavy rock n' roll you should hit me up.
Long Live The Chariot.
It's 9 o'clock on a Friday night in October, less than a week until Halloween.
I'm drawing pictures and writing out my head thoughts in a notebook covered in magazine cutouts of Mount Hood.
I'm blaring Aerosmith because why not, eh?
And then it hit me...
Steven Tyler really is my inner monster and I think I'm finally okay with that.
I know it's true; If I could just quit observing and act on my yearnings then I could be easily satisfied but it's all to fascinating to my mind.
Watching humanoids on a dance floor mimic is as primal as watching gather around a waterhole. There are predators and prey. Lions, spiders, and birds of prey. I watched a girl move like nothing I'd ever seen; hypnotizing man after man then leaving them longing for more. I think she's a black widow.
I watched sleazy guys pick up sleazy gals.
I watched lovers awkwardly make out in the back booths unaware of any bystanders.
I was suppose to wake and go to Seattle, but when I woke up I couldn't move.
I woke up to a kitchen and bathroom light still on and back door open.
There was a beautiful cool breeze and Smoggie Catt had found her way in.
I was lying sideways in the bed; belt unbuckled and pants unzipped.
I probably planned to take those off. You sleep better without jeans; that's a fact.
Unless you're out in the cold of course. But I made it home.
Not before leaving the club... more like basement at 2:30 and running into Voodoo Doughnuts. Somehow after all that beer and whiskey I ate not one, but 2 Voodoos.
But I don't remember laying down.
I met some wonderful folk last night, but the observations were even better.
I don't know where I'm going with this but I think I'm waking up really early to go to Mt. Hood tomorrow. Actually I'm really sure. This has to happen because I missed Seattle today. I need to go away for a little while.
I have a lot of head thoughts, and trying to write them all out.
Mostly I just blog a lot, but the grey is returning and all these head thoughts are going into an even greater book.
I can feel it, but right now these feelings just gotta simmer a little more.
More than anything I'm ready to play some rock n' roll; that's the only reason I left the forest anyhow.
This sums up last night. It felt so good. It felt so right. Thanks for the invite Jackie.
If there's a place beyond the city lights; where the car's hum can't be heard
No airplanes above, only the songs being sung by birds
I want to go there.
That's where I need to be. To see what life was like before humanity.
I don't hate man; sometimes there's just too much noise.
I love rock n' roll but you don't know music until you've stood face to face with a giant waterfall.
I just want to escape for a little while to know it can be done.
Just for a little while then I'll return.
They say " you just want to die". Nothing is further from the truth.
It's this search for freedom that makes me feel alive.
I need to feel scared; to know something greater still wanders out there.
Beyond the concrete forest and the man made caves.
I know I'm not the only one who wonders.
I just need to escape the machines.
To run with the wild if only for a while.
If there's truly a place beyond the city lights; where the car's hum can't be heard that's where I want to go.
Quit trying to stop me; this fox isn't dumb.
I want to sing in a band that sounds like a mix of Arcade Fire, The White Stripes, and Portugal. The Man, The National, and Pedro The Lion.
If that's even possible to do; i don't know. I don't play instruments. I just want to be part a bottle crushing, whiskey drinking, joint smoking, story telling rock n' roll band.
Tracking vocals for some tracks to this "new" project with Adam and Cody this Thursday night. Hell is about to break loose. I have a lot of words to say; there's a monster inside that's been looking for a way out for a long time now.
More words soon.
I have a date tonight with a long, lost lover: music.
I'm playing music with the only two people who fully understand my heart and soul when it comes to music: Adam Duckworth and Cody Pulliam.
It'll be the first time we've plugged up and played loudly since Nausicaa came to an end in December 2011. I'm so ready to hold that mic in my hand again and see what kind of magic happens.
I sold my soul to rock n' roll, and I have so longed for what is soon to happen. There's a special kind of madness that comes with heavy rock n' roll. I can't explain it, but I know it owns my soul.
Did I get your attention? I hope so. New A.B. TV episode tonight at 7pm PST. It's about wild plastic bags and how they are trying to take over the world. I
In the mean time read my head thought I somehow miraculously typed out. I spent the last few days trying to write it all out. It's a bit lengthy, but I typed into small blocks because I know it's hard to focus on one big word block.
I'm so ready to play some fucking heavy rock n' roll for you!
You have no idea.
It will be dirty, powerful, loud, and slightly ridiculous.
You will love it. And I will let you.
The End.
Fall Out Boy-Death Valley
I wanna see your animal side
Let it all out
I wanna see the dirt
Under your skin
I need your broken promises
I want the guts and glory baby
This town is wasted and alone
But we are alive
Here in death valley
But don't take love off the table yet
Cause tonight it's just fire alarms and losing you
We love a lot
So we only lose a little
We are alive
I wanna see your animal side
Let it all out
Oh there you go; undress to impress
You can wear the crown but you're no princess
Let's put the "D" in dirt now baby, baby
Let's get you wasted and alone
Cause we are alive
Here in death valley
But don't take love off the table yet
Cause tonight it's just fire alarms and losing you
We love a lot
So we only lose a little
We are alive
We're gonna die
It's just a matter of time
Hard times come
Good times go
I'm either gone in an instant
Or here til the bitter end
I, I never know
What I've got will make you feel more alive
I'll be your favorite drug, I will get you high
I will get you high
We are alive
Here in death valley
But don't take love off the table yet
Cause tonight it's just fire alarms and losing you
We love a lot
So we only lose a little
We are alive
We are alive
Against Me!- T.S.R.
The party's over
A cd's skipping
It's the same hook repeating
Grows more grating with each passing second...
And the walls contain a resonation, laughter, and conversation.
It was fun while it lasted, but now we should be going.
And I hope everybody had real, real good time
The hospitality's partaken, my head is flying my heart's racing to keep up.
And I hope I havent overdone it nooo...
I hope my body can take it. I hope I make the occasion.
It's only this fucked up I start realizing
all this living is just dying
and if these are my friends, if this is my home,
if this is how Ii spend my nights, how I communicate, and demonstrate a love of life.
My eyes roll into the back of my head, if these are the last words that I ever said
No I'm not ready to die just yet.
That I don't appreciate Hot Water Music and Against Me! until I moved away from Gainesville. Oh well! Time to make the coffee!
So I was going to write out my thoughts on the new Fall Out Boy album, but as of now my attention span hasn't allowed such things to happen. So I'll just share my favorite tracks. If you haven't listened to the album yet then get to it!
Seriously tried to narrow it down to five favorites and couldn't. It's a fairly solid album. Good to have the boys back kicking ass!
