Life

New Jacket

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Today I went shopping for a rain coat with my friend Ellen. Well we didn't find what we were looking for (this time) but I did find a badass jean jacket.

I've been looking for a jean jacket for over a year now. It still had it's price tag of $168 but it was at Ross for only $30 and it's brand new! Yay! 

Now just to work on breaking this thing in so it's not so stiff

I think Ellen might be good luck. Thank you, Ellen, for the shopping date. 

These Days

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These days been going fast. These days are memories that will last.

Got back from Virginia just over a week ago. Been surrounded by all kinds of genuine people every since.

Taking all the necessary steps to get my book published this November.

Getting ready to go to start a new venture with my friend Josh Bermudez.

Went out with my friends Cougan Smith and Paige on Saturday night for drinks. They are just good company no matter what the occasion. Then drunkenly eating Roxy’s at 2am.

Roxy’s is one of just a few 24 hour diners in Portland, Oregon; a lot of personality in this place and good food, too.  A perfect place to kind of try and sober up.

Then Sunday I went to Cathedral Park in St Johns portion of Portland. It’s name is very fitting. The archways of the bridge are huge. From the bridge are good views of Mt Hood and Mt St Helens.

It’s well aged and there are lots of good nooks for escaping to read a book. I even saw not even big enough to walk with a Mohawk!

 And now… now I’m at the airport in Charlotte, North Carolina. I was here just over a week ago flying back from Virginia. This time I’m in transit to Orlando, Florida to see my friends and Portugal. The Man.

Oooooh I finally listened to the newest The Strokes album yesterday. More like listened to it 3 times! So good! That falsetto! What?!? More on that in a later blog; I have a plane to catch. 

I’ve got so many words running in my head to write. It  feels so good to be alive. I feel like I can’t write them fast enough. Just gotta take things one moment at a time.

Florida

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Flying to Orlando, Florida tomorrow night and flying back Wednesday. I can only take so much heat and humidity. 

Get to see some good friends I haven't seen a little while including Avani's new little creature. That should be fun. She's a double mommy now. Man, that's a lot of diapers.  

Then it's Portugal. The Man with Sarah and Jenny the next day.

Thank you for the early birthday gift, Jenny.

Nothing like good music with good people. Excited to see you guys. 

 

Headaches

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I woke up with a headache at about 8:30am, went back to sleep, and up and getting the essentials done but this damn headache isn't going away. I've been drinking coffee, took headache medicines, even ate a warm and wholesome meal.  

Also I've been trying to get into the new Arcade Fire stuff but it still hasn't grabbed me like the last few albums. Am I missing something? 

I love Smoggie Catt so much. She is so funny about Portland weather. She loves running outside but then she runs inside telling me about how cold she has got. I try to tell her that I know. I warned her it would be cold. I guess we all just have to learn things on our own. 

Otherly, outside getting my book published I have another new endeavor my friend Josh Bermudez in Florida have been working on. I've told a few of you people about it, and can't wait to tell of you about it. Hopefully in the next couple weeks I can go live with the idea. 

Enough computer time for the day. I need to wander. 

Focus

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I've got more thoughts than words I'm excited to be off the next couple days with no where to go. Maybe I'll try to do some new writing tomorrow. I have so many things I want to be learning. I can't read fast enough; I need more focus.

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East Coast / West Coast Folks

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I've got so many feelings and not enough words. I've sat here for damn near 20 minutes trying to write an all encompassing words for everyone to understand.

  • I've never felt so at home. I've never felt so blessed. I'm very thankful for what I have back East, but there's some special kind of magic in the Pacific Northwest.

  • There's really some good hearted folks out there. Take time and listen.
  • There's all kinds of interesting creatures and things to be learn.
  • I've slept all day and still feel exhausted.
  • My body wants to stay awake.
  • This night calls for Lonesome's Pizza and Ninja Turtles movies.

Thank you everyone for making this little fox's life great.

LIfe don't always make a lot of sense, and what's the fun if it does? Just get lost in it.

Sometimes you swim. Sometimes you get wet.

While I wait for pizza i will listen to Chopin.

 

New Tattoos

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I got two new tattoos in honor of my little brother, Dalton who passed away last week.  

The first is Scarecrow Jack from Nightmare Before Christmas.  I have always told myself that if something happened to my kid brother that I would get something from this movie because it's our favorite movie and it was released the year he was born; 1993. 

When Dalton lived with my Grandma Walton as a child it was the only thing that would calm him down enough to put him to sleep.  

The second tattoo is a symbol that Dalton drew on everything. It was his signature. It meant "Goldfire" which was he told me he wanted to be his rapper name and just another name he felt represented him.

If you look at it upright it definitely looks like a person. His best friend Megan said he once said "It means nothing and everything all at once.". That's my Dalton. I get it dude.

Thanks to Stefan Wuttke at Ink Works for taking the time to get me out away from the craziness of life for a little bit and giving me a proper memorial to an awesome dude, Dalton "Goldfire" Stout.  

What A Week It's Been

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Well there's been a lot happening this past week. It all happens so quick and you don't know what or how to think.

One moment you're in an airport, the next moment you're in a hospital room seeing your kid brother hooked up to a machine to keep his body breathing, the next moment you're meeting family you haven't seen since you were barely walking. 

It's been great to get back to Pennsylvania and Virginia. These worlds are just fragmented memories to me.

I've reconnected with family I haven't spoke to in probably 20 years.

I learned my Great Grandma on my Grandpa's side was 100% Swedish! Ironic because that's the only European country that I feel an urgency and see.

I've learned about the Thompson's. That's my Grandma's maiden name, and they seem to be where my mom's "wild hare" gene comes from. It's quite fascinating actually.

And that's just the start of it...

But now I need to get up off the couch and put some presentable clothes on. Aunt Mag is on her way over and we are going to pick up Dalton's ashes. I need to finish this coffee so I can talk real sentences. 

I miss you, Dalton. I really do. It's been good to head back to the East Coast. I can see why the forefathers were enchanted by these lands but I'm ready to return to my world in Cascadia. The land of giant trees, rivers, and mountains that damn near touch the sky. 

Here are some of the pictures from around my Pennsylvania and Virginia adventurings. 

​Dalton "Restless" Wright Stout: Nov 24, 1993 - Sept 18, 2013

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They say a picture is worth a thousand words and but I'm holding a handful of pictures and I'm still absolutely clueless of what I'm suppose to feel.

I'm truly at a loss for words. It's hard to imagine your greatest fear has actually became real.

 I want to say so much, but I can barely move my pen. I've come to type some words to acknowledge what has happened and I can barely believe what I'm doing.

You imagine that you'll act a certain way when what you know is inevitable will happen but you rarely ever do.

I knew this day would come somehow, but I believed it was just over thinking habit because that's what Libras do.

Dalton, I love you so fucking much man. You and Smoggie Catt are the only creatures that bring my eyes tears  

i'll see you in the next life. In an enchanted forest where we can be wild and free I hope.

 I hope you didn't hurt much. I promise I will see you again. I'm sorry I couldn't keep you safe, man. This world is full of crazy fucks. You're free to be a new man. I wish you better luck.

I'm headed to Virginia now. I'll hope you get some sleep now. You've waited long enough.

Goodnight my kid brother. Goodnight my friend.

I promise I'll see you in the next life. The stars will guide us both. 

  Dalton "Restless" Wright Stout: Nov 24, 1993 - Sept 18, 2003

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It's A Cool, Grey Day

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Currently:

  • the skies are turning grey
  • the temperature is a comfortable 67 degrees
  • Smoggie Catt keeps running in the house covered in a light layer mist
  • my laundry is clean

Now I'm going to read a book and let Edward Scissorhands play in the background. Mostly because I don't have the attention span to just sit and watch the movie while it plays by itself.

And because nothing compliments a cool, grey day in my head like a good old fashioned Danny Elfman soundtrack. Nothing.

STUFF!!!

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Today I bought stuff! I do like stuff! 

  • Incense 
  • candle
  • rugs
  • towels
  • sketch pad
  • book about the red fox

Today was a success. There were even a burrito, chips, and guacamole somewhere in the process. And a really yummy americano from Barista.

Oooh and lunch from my neighborhood New Seasons. A really yummy quinoa salad and juicy peach for dessert.

I didn't even drink coffee until 2:30pm. Talk about being in a fuzzy state of mind half the day. But I didn't actually wake up until 12pm. That definitely felt weird.

I don't like sleeping that late. Guess the body decided that's what it needed. Smoggie came in are moist from the rain and jumped on the bed. It was very cute.

What else? I found the book "Stinky Cheese Man and Other Fairly Stupid Tales" in a free book exchange thing on the walk to get coffee. Which in itself is an awesome find, but even cooler because I was just talking about it with a friend a few days earlier. 

Today was very good indeed. Now it's time to burn a little incense, candle, eat some leftover chips, and maybe do a little reading and writing!