ramblings
good, okay, and alright
three sides of an ever-rotating obtuse triangle
“This is not your apocalypse! we all did this so don’t get it twisted”
that’s what he yelled
like one of those fuckers obsessed with poker
we all know one of them
or some of them
i am not the monster i occasionally foster
her name is Martha
i think
i think a lot
articulation is another part of gravity that is best left to the trees
i believe
love is a verb. it’s what we do. gratitude is the adjective that got us here. my mind is a whirlwind of things and stuff. sometimes focused. sometimes not. the day is warm, but not too hot. my body says create. my ears say wait. listen to the music in the background and keep on typing until you cain’t any longer. so i am. so it goes. the sentence became from the words. the language, whichever one we’re using in the moment, a vehicle for the peculiar to explain the unexplainable.
prioritize priorities.
prioritize time and energies.
that’s been my focus as of lately.
I meet a lot of folk and folk around a whole lot, too.
sometimes it’s for the good and sometimes it’s plain it getting distracted.
to make my dream(s) become reality takes focus, discernment, and integrity.
if I am constantly folking around then there is less time to spend with the ones i care the most about.
less time to focus on music and art projects that fulfill and enrich my self.
prioritize priorities to have more fun and be more free.
Spending more time with the ones I love sometimes means less interactions in other realms.
to focus on my self enough to be my best self.
prioritize priorities.
well, that’s the end of this rambling. thank you to everyone who sticks around and reads these ramblings.
-ABC
what will happen after 17 ?
what happens when our vision grows weak ?
who will listen to yester year’s experience(s) with a open ears and open mind ?
( yes…eye mean all three )
and still sit still and listen
who will be the last one to stand in between ?
spittin whatever is needed to be listened to
it’s a new week. a new monday. the day before my favorite day. tuesday.
sometimes we can do much and sometimes we do little.
dreams at night have been very vivid. i don’t remember after i get up and start moving about.
smoggie catt has been really good about waking me up for the last couple days. she’s a sweetie. i love her.
Ashley and I are going to Sou’Wester this coming weekend. It’ll be a first for me and March 27th marks 2 years since the two of us started dancing together.
I have infinite gratitude and love for Ashley Klump.
well i’m only half a cup of cofffee into this day and got some home chores to do and potatoes to cook.
type more soonly.
-ABC
okay. if i don’t start typing, i will never get it out.
hummingbirds. i see them all the time now. sitting in my sitting room of my house i hear their chirp. i hear their songs.
i grab my coffee or my smoke and head outside. and again there is a hummingbird friend. on a powerline or at the treetop.
i see more hummingbirds sitting still then i do flying about.
hummingbirds have helped me remember to feel joy. a feeling i am not quick to employ.
joy for my home. joy for my state of mind. joy to be part of such a beautiful planet.
joy in looking up and finding comfort in a small bird that has great strength and mystery.
and to the republic and the nonsense inn witch it stands
we know what we know and seek what we do not understand
it’s beyond 33 and into infinity
it’s as simple as obvious and as unknown as the ghosts under our steps
it’s as easy as speaking and as complex as a perfect toast
stand in line to compromise
shout it out or whisper in silence
It is another bright and cool autumn day in Portland, Oregon. Personally still wishing for more rain and less sunrays.
Either way it is beautiful out there.
I woke up and made a scramble of veggies and eggs for breakfast. 2 cups of coffee in the DNA. I began cleaning the creative space. AGAIN. it’s the most challenging space for my self to hohm in on and where i make music and thus needs to be prioritized again and again.
I had to walk away from that task for a bit so I put away some laundry went for a walk.
I feel after 8 years of living in Portland, Oregon that I am beginning to understand the correct layering of clothing as to feel the cold and not be cold.
And now. I am typing out words. About time to walk into the creative space and move things about some more.
Keep your heads up. Keep on looking out. There’s a lot of magic happening in the wild unknown. Make sure you are a part of it.
-ABC
It can be very difficult for myself to focus long enough to type what’s going through my head to post a simple blog .com update day to day or even a couple times a day.
The truth being I have never had so many thoughts going through my head as I have until the last couple months of existence.
I sit and listen to full conversations and sometimes even talk out full dialoges but so rarely does it make it into a typed bog. I use instagram videos to ramble and I stil carry a notebook/journal to leave my bones.
I still have a full time job making coffee for people. I am still writing. I have sold 28 of the 33 copies of my book “Fragmented Realities (Rambles of a Madman)” and I am very grateful to everyone who has been apart of that process.
I still draw in symbols/zzzwalking a little bit all the time and post those to the instagram almost daily.
My overall goal is stil to focus on my music. There’s a sway to say and a sway to stay things only music can say properly.
green chair
deerhunter on the radio player // album: cryptograms
woke up at 9:30am // stepped out for a smoke and check the mail
i had a valentine’s day card from Ashley’s parents
unexpected and fuzzy feels. thank you Craig and Kristie.
Fell back into sleep realm and woke up at 4:30pm
wandered down to find coffee at Bare Bones
helped Ashley vacuum out FDAK
And Now: Deerhunter on the radio player // album: cryptograms
spontaneous cleaning tasks intertwined with creative spurts and now computer words
be blessed. be free. be aware. be.
-ABC
there are many narratives
they appear in words overheard
advertisements
scriptures
there is a need to wander
and a longing to sit content
a blue pill and a red
metaphor upon metaphor
resistance and escapism
uncertain what it means to be okay
okay to be insane
a madman once told me
the gods are nothing without relief
and magic is nothing without belief
i believed him and found the fifth dimension
unable to reside there and here
leads to me to frustrating situations
to see through people or to see them through
and what it means to be free
it’s a big box
a big sphere
quantum cycles
looking for the source of it all
the best day of the week! the day that never ends and never began!
with one weasel in the back pocket of the antelope who hopped the ocean in search of a coat
i don’t know how it got there and i don’t care to talk about your speculative woes
it’s not historic until it’s written in stone
it’s not decided until they decide to let it go
follow me to the river
you don’t have to jump in
i know i won’t
it’s not what i do
and i’m just as furious as you about this fever sweeping the banks of the Nile
well if there is one thing i am certain of
i’m certain of this little acrobat and the magician that followed them back to the lab
they think they’re clever and they think they know what is best
but i know better then them
rock n roll will save our souls
just as it did
and always has
and it will again
I’m playing singing songs and making noise at The Nest Lounge this Wednesday night from 10 to 10:30pm. If you are in the area I’d love to see you there. Yes… you.
The last two weeks have been a constant go go with very little repose. It all started simmering down yesterday evening. Ashley and I started organizing and cleaning our homebase or as we call it, the foggy lantern.
It’s been fun making a home with Ashley Klump. There is healthy amount of movement of things and it feels a little more hohmy every little shift. I have never really felt this feel before. I guess I’ve never meant a person like Ashley Klump before eyether.
Well I intended to ramble more but I got distracted cleaning out my email of unreads. There is about 6 thousand of them which means a refresh of unsubscribing to things i thought I would read.
I’m looking for more shows to open up for people. I need to walk to the grocery store a few blocks away.
that is all for now fellow earthlings.
be free.
-ABC
i'm just realizing i didn't make one blog post all of september.
what a month it was. there were so many adventures, my brain is still catching up.
i saw dinosaur jr a few nights ago. thank you moe.
i went on some crazy trips.
i took as many notes as possible.
tim and i have recording some acorn season tracks. 3 to be exact.
one can be heard below and the others will go up sunday morning. that's tomorrow.
we have a rock n roll show tomorrow night.
i'm excited. nervous. Eeeek!!!
i found some magical boot showed at goodwill and a "new" pair of skinny jeans1 well jeggings at goodwill yesterday.
it rained as october began last night. this is truly the most magical time of the year.
october is here.
i have to stop rambling and prepare my brain to go make yummy, grilled pbj's.
life is alright. more than alright.
falling back in love with a microphone and sing along songs.
i went wandering a moment or so ago. it's what i do when i need to get out of my head.
thank you Kimmy for the cherries and thank you Colin for the dirty jokes that i won't repeat here.
the scents of post rain and warm, cozy, fire filled the air.
also the jasmine is in full bloom.
nothing like that smell punching your nose when you walk around the corner.
i've been working on a "magic box" made from scraps of an "alice in wonderland" book i found the other day.
all of my palo santo is about burned up. i need to acquire more soon.
but now i must wander away from the laptop to make some rice.
be free fellow earthlings.
-abc
i live in the united states of america.
i'd like to think i live in a small republic called Cascadia.
i actually don't know the literal interpretation of republic.
anyway.. i like the idea of a group of folk gathered under the ideals of living in harmony and protecting the forest and rivers.
but i do not. i live in the united states of america.
run by a corporate machine.
not the liberty of which she sings.
there's crazy drought in the western united states.
the east coast is getting dumped on with rain. and snow.
::there is no such thing as global warming::
and now i've lost my attention span.
pay attention.
take time to wander.
take time to pander.
be free...
-abc
12 cents of common sense
won't get you very far
but it's enough to get you thinking
drawing pictures
writing words
dancing and singing songs
i'm not much for numbers
mostly they stress me out
one more cup of coffee
8 hour working shifts
they're living for the 3 day weekend
then back at it
no concern for the effects
just living in the minute
a lot of change is happening
and convenience is out of control
mad as a hatter
wishing for greyer days
waiting for the autumn rain
still hoping for the best
watching the world burn
where do we begin?
my computer is going entirely too slow but i'm going to keep typing.
it catches up eventually; it gives me time to breathe.
the climates have changed. we all know it. i'm just saying it for the sake of narrating.
what's next?
in short or long?
my computer stalled again
i'm going to ramble on
i write a lot in notebooks but it's another thing to ramble to a computer screen
it's an open ended script and hopefully it makes some kind of sense
it's hard to talk in sentences when there are so many parantheses in my neck
living in northwest portland is intense
i appreciate this moment
some words just need to be typed for documentation
bubble.
that's my favorite word
i moved 2900 miles away to find home
climate change
i moved here for rain
it's changed
so what are we going to do?
we got to come together
hyper localize
it doesn't have to be hard but you should get to know your neighbor
we don't need all the distractions
we set a lot of expectation on appointments and forget about the moments that happen every couple seconds
look up dreamers
the world is still turning
we must make time for learning
read a book. go for walks. say hello to one another.
i don't know where this is going.
these words that is.
we got to connect folks.
we have to slow down.
take time to think. take time to wander.
if we don't take time to think we'll drive ourselves further towards insanity
the heats going to make them crazy.
drink water. lots of water.
california is drying up. so is mexico. so is palestine. and so on.
localize. make no room for the big guys.
it's not easy. nah.
i don't even know what else to type.
basically.. make time to think. make time to be.
the world is changing fast.
learn to observe. observe to learn.
i need to exit the internets and read some words.
be free fellow earthlings!
-ABC
You can't step into the ocean without getting wet.
